An honest account of a middle-aged man’s struggle and gradual ebbing losses in life, based on an online journal he maintained; he was struck with cancer in the colon and the liver in middle of a happy life; the book is a result of Kristian’s wife’s work at stringing together blogposts from his website.
Kristian Anderson quotes the bible pretty often and loves music.
Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack in everything
That’s how the light gets in.
LEONARD COHEN, “ANTHEM”
He started out as a workaholic trying to come to terms with the truth of his diagnosis. He would come home to run into his children’s toys and cherish them. His faith proved to be his footing that spurred him on to stand and keep standing if not run, keep standing and fight.
The wife remains a colossal support and reads up on chemotherapy while her husband undergoes the drudgery of the drug injection everyday. He finds strength in family and hopes of a divine end to a draining, violent struggle. As he writes at one point,
“Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,I will fear no evil,
for you are with me.
PSALM 23:4 CE
I now know what it means to walk through the valley of the shadow of death. But the thing about a shadow is that it is vaporized by light.
First John 1:5 reads:This is the message we have heard from him and declare to you: God is light; in him there is no darkness at all.”
लोग बदलते हैं पागल मौसम की तरह । लेकिन तू? तू भी बदल गया?
सूझ-बूझ समझ, सब बेसब्री में डूब गये।
अँधा तू है या मैं हो गयी हूँ? मालूम नहीं ।
प्यार दफना दिया आवाज़ दफना दी; तूने ये किस आक्रोश में ये कैसा बदला लिया?
… दूरी बढ़ना ज़रूरी था । हम इतने करीब आ चुके थे
कि डर भी सहम के पूछने लगा था , “कब तक?”
न तू रहा मेरा न मैं तेरी,
फिर ये नजदीकियां खाई जैसी? मैं हैरान हूँ, कुछ कह नहीं सकती … कुछ कह नहीं पा रही।
मुझपे क्या इलज़ाम लगाता है ?
लोग बदलते हैं पागल मौसम की तरह। और तू? तू भी बदल गया।